it's really true you won't know what you got till you lose it, whether it was good or bad. it's always give's a blind eye. well for me, i came to that point.

where i was so blind to not notice that i was become worse day by day, giving pressure to people i love. right now i see all that, my ego, my mistakes, my flaws, it brings back memories when i was not like that, when i lost something i totally change to whom i am at this moment, where i give out crap and nonsense to the people i love or just met the way i carry myself.

i would like to apologize on my act, where i didn't see all my flaws when you pointed it out, mostly my ego and boiling things out to people when it was suppose to be between us, being so demanding, pressuring you.

i realize all of that now, and i wanna change it, to become a better person for everybody around me, my mom, my brother, joel and jeremy, my family and my friends and to the person i love.

i'm so childish, it's time for me to change a 360% of myself, i never said it to you before, i don't know how many people have but i'm am gonna prove it, i may fall short but i hope you can help me, i'm willing to be the real deal.

i know i can be a better person, and i will be, if by any chance you don't see it you are free to leave, give me time please. i have never asked you for a chance before.

i am gonna keep us between us no bro's or friends. change my attitude totally, drop the ego. it's a totally big change for me, but i would like you to be there and see it instead of hearing it. i know typing and talking is cheap.

i hope you can forgive me for all the things i've put you through, i will learn from all of theses mistakes and improve myself for the better.

just know that i really love you and you always make me happy no matter, we had more downs then up's. i really have never loved a girl so much in my entire life. and that i'm just gonna be better out of all of this.

from now onward i will carry myself differently and be a better person to everybody, that is in my life including you.