all these things i've done and i didn't mean to hurt you just to put you first

i wouldn't tell you lies  and i will stand accused with my hand on my heart 

im just trying to say im sorry, its all i can say you mean so much and i'd fix all that i've done if i could start again, i'd throw it all away to the shadow of regrets 

and i promise you that you would have the best of me

i know i can't take back all my mistakes but i will try although its not easy..

Don't believe their lies told from jealous eyes, they don't understand because in the end they will just break your heart and bring you down..

i know its been along time but ever since that day of your departure i wasn't the same as i was,

i knew i was the one that walked away from you but i was naive i thought i wasn't good enough for you i never tried to be better then you expect me to be or even  treat you better and all but after all i know i was wrong and i do admit it, i was rash i know all of it now i finally understand it's cleared up in this stubborn heard of mine but i always cared for you in every single way possible no matter what i still do.. i know im an asshole to be saying this now but i just thought you should know its this guilt i've been carrying around with me for all this time i couldn't say anything and cause of all this i avoided everything gave up everything, im sorry i had to be so selfish about this but you made me feel so alive the communication was there it was so real and i never had like this with any other girl then you, the memories we had the fun times the down times i know i was mean i was not an appreciating person cause i was so locked up deep inside but i finally know what it all means now to let go and just be me for you and us for us and if only i could reverse it, i know we all can't what's done is done but

we have been into so much together i just plainly miss it all, you bring me up with you i can't go down but without you there is nothing worth a tomorrow for me, i miss us everything we had together it was great in fact the best no other woman will be able to steal my heart away like you did and no matter what you will always be my first in my heart my love,

we had chemistry it was all there i was just too blind to see it all, yeah you can say we were young and so in love but all the silly things i did to make you laugh that showed you i did care even  when i didn't really show it to you ,  and i know it just wouldn't be the same like it was before last but if there is still something there we can build it up together again i just know it,

and Yes i still do LOVE YOU!